Soo. This kidd wanted me to do something over the phone with him that i DID NOT want to do & i told him no. He got all butt hurt and so i stopped talking to him cause i don’t need to put up with that shit. Now he is in one of my classes and he has been texting me about doing stuff with him and i don’t want to cause he blew up on me over something stupid. I don’t want to be a bitch and not talk to him so i will still be his friend but i don’t want to be a fuck buddie. I’m not like that. I promised myself that i would not have sex or do anything with a guy unless i actually like them and they like me back,but everytime i tell a guy that they don’t belive me. It’s super depressing because that just makes me feel like a slut and i really don’t want people thinking that. He,the guy i started talking about, said that it was different for him because i started talking to him before i made that promise. I know what i should do. But i dunno. This is all confusingg. Uhh. I’m always in these type of situation.I’m just going to go study and then thing about this over again.. I’ll be back laterr. (:
August 2010
8 posts
So today was TOATLY lame. I sat home all day watched some movies! fun fun! uhm texted ,ate ,and yelled. haa. uhm ohpp i watched JerseyShore<3 funnn! ahaa. but yeah. nothing really excited happend todayy . The scrimmaggee yesterday was super funn:D ohhh and i just seen a picture of my littlest brother and i neverrrr see him! like ever! i haven’t seen him in over a year): but i seen a picture of him &he is soo cute he is full mexican and has the prettiest eyes<3 i love himm (: told my daddy to give me that picturee so i can put it in my binder haha! well i’m off too beedddd(: goodnighttt!
Ahh. today was the fist day of school &i LOVED it(: Junior year is going to be chill &easy as fuckk(: haa. Tomarrow is our scrimmage against Torrey Pines! Ahh i can’t wait. I missed football like crazy! Tomarrow is going to be madness i can feel it alreadyy. haa. Hmm I’m like super tired but i don’t want to go to bed yet. I have sooo much on my miinddd it’s annoying. I wanna know why he is mad at me &whyyy he won’t text me back. But i don’t want to bugg him so imma lay off until he decides to talk to me. I don’t know what to do with this boy i really don’t. I seen my bestestt for the first time today since school ended. His hair got SUPER log and he looks superrrr cuteee(; ahaa. I really don’t want him to cut itt. Ahh. well my knee is hurting so imma go ice itt. Goodnigh Tumblr<3 Sweetdreams(:
I tell him one little thing cause he asked me,i can’t lie to him, and he asked another question BUT it WAS NOT about me and so i’m not going to tell him. Now he is all mad at me and so me hanging out with him today was pointless. What more can i do? i tell him EVERYTHING about M E but i can’t tell him everything about someone elses life you know?He obviously doesn’t understand that but i want him to cause he is one of the people that i never want to be mad at me…uhhgg. i don’t know what to doo/:
So i’m super stoked on football season starting upp. I already know most of all varsity from me training for them last year. Now i’m doing JV &i’m meeting a bunch of new people! I love itt(: There are a few boys i can not standdd on JV haha but the ones i can stand make my day. Especially the coaches. haha. I hate having to wake up super early to go get them ready for practice but i LOVE training . It has become my life<3 haha, sad i know. but that’s what i wanna do. Just gotta keep them grades upp &i’ll get there (: Just thought i would let Tumblr<3 know my lifee story rite now. ahaa.(:
Goodnight!(:
was creeeepppiinnn’ on my comments on myspace and seen that it said i liked him and he said oh no it won’t be awkward and shitt and whenever i see him he ignors me. now he’s got the balls to IM me and sit here and tell me about on of my bestfriends saying i really don’t know himm. last time i checked i’ve known him longer and i know alot about himm. BACK OFF HOMIE! Don’t tell me who i do and don’t knoww alrighhtt. ahaa. thankss.
Football’s startingg upp finally! Have too be there early in the morning everyday to tend to the boys needs. &i’m fine with that. I love all the boys to death. Well a few i have some problems with. Some of them are just now getting over what they were told last football season and they are talking to me again ! They finally realized that it wasn’t their buissness :D i’m super excited for that,less people that hate mee. haa. I love helping them,the football players,the other trainers,family,friends,but once you piss me off like i do a favor for you ESPECIALLY if i go out of my way and do it for you and then i acidently did something wrong and you blame it on me,you’ve crossed the line. I try my hardest to help everyone no matter who you are. If you hate mee and you need help i will help you,i’m not the type of person to sit there and stair while you are struggling. If you don’t want to talk to me or say thankyou then whatever,but if you are going to sit thre ant talk shit as i walk away or walk past then FUCK YOU TOO. I’m not going to sit thre and appoligize if I did you a favor and messed up. It’s yr responisibility not mine,i was just there helping you. I’m not a bitch &i’m not a hoe. But i will be a bitch if you piss me off or say something or do something that was uncalled for. &you call me a hoe because you think i’m in Athletic Training for the guys,but i’m not. I love what i do &that’s why i do it. It’s a great expieriance and i love meeting new people,it breaks me out of my shyness. So when you call me namess or talk shitt just think twice about what you are saying because i’m pretty sure you are just describing your self.
